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Ten minutes later, the beeping of monitors, accompanied by the rhythmic thumping of a LUCAS sounded from the hallway.\u00a0This is bad.<\/em>\u00a0She turned to the youngest of her co-workers, fresh out of school. \u201cMaura, this is your first trauma case, isn\u2019t it? It can be harsh, but you\u2019ll be fine. Don\u2019t let it get to you, OK? Can you man CT2 with Gary while we scan the trauma patient in CT1?\u201d<\/p>\n Maura paled. Minnie held her gaze, trying to reassure her with a smile. After a few seconds, Maura took a deep breath and the tension in her shoulders eased just a fraction. \u201cThanks.\u201d She sent a tentative smile in Minnie\u2019s direction before turning towards the other console.<\/p>\n Minnie walked into the hallway to direct the incoming ER team to the right set of doors. \u201cCT1, please.\u201d She held her badge in front of the badge reader on the wall to open the doors into the scan room. Carl, the ER doc, nodded to her before following the team inside.<\/p>\n Behind the rest of the team, came Joss with a woman dressed in plain clothes. The tight-lipped expression on her face as she guided the woman into the console room froze Minnie in her tracks. When Joss came back out, Minnie pulled her to the side. “What… Joss! Who is that?”<\/p>\n Joss grimaced, a disapproving frown darkening her light grey eyes. \u201cThe patient\u2019s mother. Used to be the head nurse on one of the wards. She insisted on coming along and Carl allowed it.\u201d<\/p>\n “I usually like Carl. But he shouldn’t have let this happen. She shouldn’t have to see this.” Taking a deep breath, Minnie shrugged and led Joss into the scan room.<\/p>\n A full team of nurses, along with two doctors, surrounded the gurney. Between their shoulders, Minnie caught glimpses of the patient. LUCAS arched over his chest, maintaining the circulation his heart had given up on. The sight of the pneumatic pump pressing down upon the boy\u2019s chest\u2026 Minnie closed her eyes, but she couldn\u2019t unsee it. She\u2019d been trying for years.<\/p>\n \u201cMinnie, can LUCAS fit through the CT gantry? We have to maintain full life support.\u201d Carl hesitated, looking from the patient to the gantry. \u201cIt\u2019ll be a tight fit.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cThe gantry is too narrow. We need to switch to manual CPR when we\u2019re set to scan.\u201d Minnie glanced into the console room at the the boy\u2019s mother. The screen in front of the woman bathed her tear-streaked face in an eerie blue glow. Shaking her head against the distraction, she turned to the stretcher with an Easy-Slide board in her hands.<\/p>\n Rob stepped in front of her. \u201cWhat do you think you\u2019re doing?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cBut I can\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cMin. Console.\u201d Rob took the board from her and nudged her towards the door.<\/p>\n Minnie took one last look at the patient her co-workers were positioning on the table.\u00a0 He was just a kid. Did he look grayer than he had just a minute ago?\u00a0She couldn’t go there. Not now.\u00a0Shaking her head, she reached for the console to load the scanning protocols.<\/p>\n \u201cOh please, God. My boy… Please tell me he\u2019s not dying.\u201d The boy\u2019s mother wrung her hands. The dirt under her nails and the grass stains on her jeans testified to the gardening she had abandoned.<\/p>\n Minnie read the date of birth off the screen–twenty years old. She silently rested her hand on her own stomach, feeling the slight curve that wasn\u2019t visible yet in her nurse\u2019s scrubs. Tears rose to the surface as she heard the woman behind her moaning as if already grieving for her son.<\/p>\n Carl and most of the team entered the console room, leaving Rob behind with one of the ER nurses to keep up CPR now that LUCAS was dismantled for the CT.<\/p>\n \u201cFull trauma set, please, Minnie.\u201d Carl took the chair next to hers to get a first look at the images.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cWay ahead of you, Doc. We\u2019re all set. Does Rob know which line to use for contrast?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cNo contrast. BP\u2019s too low to get an IV in. All we have is an IO line.\u201d Carl\u2019s face, reflected in the window between them and their patient, looked grim. The tight line of his jaw betraying the hopelessness of this fight, he turned his gaze towards the screen.<\/p>\n Without IV contrast to pinpoint the source of the bleeding, surgeons would be flying blind.\u00a0Minnie watched scan after scan.\u00a0Head: clear at first sight. C-spine: same. Thorax: Not good.<\/p>\n \u201cThat\u2019s what we were afraid of. We have to get him off the table and up to the OR.\u201d Carl turned to the boy\u2019s mother. \u201cCarla, can you find your way back to the ER? I\u2019ll come and find you there as soon as I can.\u201d<\/p>\n The team filed back into the scan room to transfer the patient back to his stretcher and into the waiting arms of LUCAS. Minnie walked in last. The boy\u2019s eyes stared straight past her, already looking broken, as if his body had accepted what everyone else in the room was still fighting. Minnie resisted the urge to touch her stomach again and took her place at the boy\u2019s head to stabilise it during the transfer. Rob opened his mouth, but one look from her was enough to keep him quiet.<\/p>\n The team left as soon as LUCAS was back up and running, leaving behind a scan room littered with the debris of saving a life, syringe wrappers and silence. Looking around, Minnie\u2019s gaze caught the eyes of the boy\u2019s mother. \u201cCarla, is it? I\u2019m Minnie. Do you need one of us to walk you back?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cYou should sit, Min. You look pale. I\u2019ll walk Carla back to the ER.\u201d Rob pulled out a desk chair and parked Minnie at the console desk, leaving Pete, Maura, and Gary to babysit her.<\/p>\n She pushed the chair back and got to her feet. \u201cActually Rob, I can take Carla back. I feel fine. If you guys don\u2019t mind, I\u2019ll just hop outside for some fresh air. I won\u2019t be long.\u201d Gritting her teeth, she glared at her co-workers, daring them to question her.<\/p>\n \u201cAre you alright, Carla? Do you need to sit for a minute before we go back?\u201d Minnie looked at Carla, who was swaying on her feet, her breathing rapid and shallow. \u201cI know you\u2019re scared, but I promise you this: Every doc and every nurse in that OR is fighting for him. Count out your breaths with me. In\u2026 two, three. Out\u2026 two, three. In… Out…\u201d She knelt\u00a0in front of Carla and looked up into her eyes. \u201cOK? Are you alone here or do you have family waiting for you in the ER waiting room?\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cMy\u2026\u201d Carla cleared her throat. \u201cMy husband came with me.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cThat\u2019s good. You shouldn\u2019t be alone.\u201d Smiling at her, Minnie got up. \u201cDo you feel up to walking back?\u201d<\/p>\n Carla nodded, took another deep breath, and stood to follow Minnie.<\/p>\n As they entered the ER waiting room, a tall man with grey hair stopped pacing to look at them. His eyes sought out his wife and Carla ran straight at him. His arms closed around her, swallowing her grief into his own. He looked at Minnie but there was nothing she could tell them that would make this any easier.<\/p>\n She walked over to them and gently squeezed Carla\u2019s shoulder. \u201cI\u2019ll be praying for you all.\u201d<\/p>\n Letting go of her husband, she turned towards Minnie and enveloped her in a warm hug. \u201cThank you so much, Minnie. You did everything you could.\u201d<\/p>\n Minnie blinked in an attempt to hold back her tears. \u201cI wish it could have been more.\u201d<\/p>\n Leaning back, Carla looked into Minnie\u2019s eyes. \u201cDon\u2019t be scared, Minnie. A child is such an amazing gift\u2026 Protect your little one, but don\u2019t forget to enjoy him, too.\u201d Her voice breaking, she let go of Minnie and leaned in to her husband.<\/p>\n Blinking, Minnie opened her mouth twice before she managed to produce a sound. \u201cHow did you\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n Carla gave her a sad smile. \u201cMothers recognise one another.\u201d<\/p>\n Tears finally rolled down Minnie\u2019s cheeks as she turned and left the room and headed for the nearest exit. She was practically running by the time she reached the door.<\/p>\n She sat on a bench and wrapped her arms around her belly, gulping in deep breaths of fresh, lilac-scented air as a breeze dried her cheeks.<\/p>\n I imagine it’s the same for authors everywhere, who occasionally write stories from their own experience. They always hit very close to home when revisiting them. The first version<\/a> was posted to my Steemit account in November of 2017. I did an edit of it, and tweaked it here and there for the occasion of moving it here.<\/p>\n I’d almost, but not quite forgotten this story. It’s one of those that won’t be forgotten.<\/p>\n The exit used by the staff at my old job had lilacs growing next to it. I doubt I will ever be able to smell that lovely scent without remembering the ugly things I’ve seen during the course of my career as a medical imaging technician. They seem to appear at random whenever I write about this topic.<\/p>\n At any rate, thank you for sharing this with me and I hope you liked the story. It certainly won’t be the last you hear of Minnie.<\/p>\n Hugs<\/em><\/p>\n Jasmine<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" \u201cMin, no lifting. Pete and I have got this.\u201d Rob pointed Minnie towards the console. She scoffed at the two men sending her stern looks across the bed of their patient. \u201cIt\u2019s called pregnancy. 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